Faith as small as a mustard seed

It’s been since May readers. I have been busy lately but enjoying every second of it. A few days ago, I was in the grocery store and came across mustard seed in the seasoning section. It was a reminder of the verse in the bible. Matt 17:20 says: He replied, “Because you have so little faith. Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.” A mustard seed is very small. In life, there are many mountains that come our way. Some can be small, when others seem difficult to move. Nothing is too big for our God. Whatever is impossible in our eyes is possible with God. God knows what is going to happen today, tomorrow and yesterday. He is in complete control of our life. It is our human nature to want to be in control. Many times we try to take control of a situation when it only will make things worse. We have to learn that God is in control and he always knows what is best even when we don’t understand. I wanted to share a story that I read in my devotion yesterday that spoke to me. One day a farmer's donkey fell down into a well. The animal cried piteously for hours as the farmer tried to figure out what to do. Finally he decided since the animal was old, and the well needed to be covered up anyway, it just wasn't worth it to retrieve the donkey. So, the farmer invited all his neighbors to come over and help him. They all grabbed shovels, and began to shovel dirt into the well. All the other farm animals were very upset about this, because the donkey was their friend. But they discovered there was nothing they could do to help him. At first, when the donkey realized what was happening, he cried horribly. Then, to everyone's amazement, he quieted down. A few shovel loads later, the farmer finally looked down the well, and was astonished at what he saw. With every shovel of dirt that hit his back, the donkey was doing something amazing. He would shake it off, and take a step up on the dirt as it piled up. As the farmer's neighbors continued to shovel dirt on top of the animal, he would shake it off and take a step up. Pretty soon, everyone was amazed as the donkey stepped up over the edge of the well, and trotted off! In life we have things that may try to weigh us down. We have to learn to let them go and understand that those things are small compared to the power that we have inside of us. God wants us to give all our problems to him. Trust that the Lord knows best no matter what. When we learn to not worry and trust in him, we can live a life full of joy.

Patience and Waiting...

Patience and waiting both go hand in hand. In order to wait for something you have to be patient. What is patience? Dictionary.com defines patience as an ability or willingness to suppress restlessness or annoyance when confronted with delay. The willingness to suppress restlessness let that sit in for a second. So in order to have patience we have to put an end to being restless and anxious all the time. We have to stop worrying about what tomorrow brings. I heard the following saying the other day: Worrying is like a rocking chair- it gives you something to do but it doesn’t get you anywhere.” God knows the desires of our heart. Why should we worry about what is ahead of us? As humans we want things to happen instantly. We don’t like to stand in long lines, we want our food fast... etc. I think Americans now day don’t understand patience and waiting because we are not use to it. Back in the olden days, they understood it more. They had to wait for the harvest, drive a long distance to get to the nearest store. We take for grant the things we have today.

How many of us like to wait for something? Not me. What is fun about waiting? Nothing at all. I think that patience and waiting is when I grow closer to the Lord though. I realize that I have one of two options: I can choose to worry about why I am still single or I can embrace it and realize that it is all part of God’s plan for my life. I told someone the other day that I don’t think God will bring someone in my life until I completely surrender it all over to God. I think so many times I try to tell God how I want things to happen. When God is telling me, Savannah your plans don’t even compare to the great plans that I have for you. Total surrender, why is that so hard? I think because we realize we can’t control what the outcome will be. As a Christian, we aren’t in control of what happens in our life. He already has it all planned out, we just need to trust him more and stop trying to tell God how we want things to be.

What makes waiting so difficult? Waiting means we must be still. I have trouble just being still. At home if it’s really quiet in the house, I will turn on the radio because I can’t stand for it to be quiet. When it’s quiet, I start to think and allow my mind to worry about things. This week, I need to embrace the quiet. I am going to allow the quiet to be time that I pray and be still. I really like this quote by Joseph Campbell: “We must let go of the life we have planned, so as to accept the one that is waiting for us.” Whatever it is that you are waiting for, let go of the life that you have planned. The life we have planned can’t even touch the plan that God has for our life. Letting go isn’t easy but the reward will be far greater if we do.

Love is more than just a feeling...

What is the first thing that comes to your mind when you think of the work love? Some would say that feeling you get when you see someone you really like. Love may be that feeling you get when you kiss someone. Love is that physical attraction you have for someone. I think that our society has love all wrong now days. I think that before you love someone there has to be a time when you didn’t love them. Love is not something that can just happen overnight, it takes time. In this post, I want to just share some thoughts that I have heard in the past few weeks that have really stuck with me.

Loving people will involve risk. It is hard to love again when you have been hurt so many times. I know personally in my life there are times that I have duck taped my heart back to together so tightly so that no one can get in. Love is risky; when you love someone you can’t just say it though. Love is an action. I want to share a quote from one of my devotionals this week, “Love doesn’t just happen to you. Love is a choice and it represents a commitment.” We have taken the word love so lightly at times. Love is something that is deep and represents a commitment. You are probably thinking right now well if love is a commitment and it involves risk, then you better count me out then. People become scared when you use the word commitment. Why is that? I think it could be they realize that once they make a commitment, it means that it no longer is about them. When you love someone you are committed to be there for them no matter what.

Just now I was looking through my sermon notes from 4/21/12 I found this: Love is an action that leads to a feeling, not the opposite. This past week I found the same words love is an action. There is no accident that I was supposed to hear that twice. If you were to tell me that you loved me but you never showed me that you loved me. I would probably have a difficult time thinking that you truly loved me. You can’t just say things; you must put into practice what you are saying. Even as Christians, anyone can say I’m a Christian, but your actions need to show that you are.

I had more to say in this blog until I started typing. I think it’s because I know that loving someone will involve risk and I have a difficult time accepting that at times. I do know that when you love someone you care about them so much and would do anything for them. A year ago, I loved someone so much; I showed them every day that I loved them by my actions. Just because that person is not in my life anymore doesn’t mean that I don’t love them. I will always love them because it wasn’t just a feeling that I had toward them. One last thought before I go, Pastor Ed made this statement this morning: The inside is way more important that the outside. I know that I may be a little picky in the type of husband that I want one day but I know that it’s ok. I want someone to see the big heart that Savannah has on the inside and treasure that. Looks will fade away, people get old and gray. However, when you love someone unconditionally you won’t care how they look; it’s the heart that matters. At the end of the day you want the person who loves you through the good and difficult times. Real love.

I will listen to his voice..

Well, it’s been another one of those emotional roller coaster weeks. I have gone from smiles and tears in just minutes apart. The good news is that my Savior has not left me for one second. He has been with me through the hard times this week and the easy times. Friday morning, my best friend Amy had brain surgery. I knew that it was in the Lord’s hands but the human in me was worried. She was in ICU for a few days. She is in a room now. I am so thankful that we serve a mighty God. He always takes care of his children. I went to see her again today. She seems to be doing better today; she still has a long recovery time though. Amy is such a strong woman; she has been through so much yet still smiles.

Yesterday was Easter. I went to my dad’s church for sunrise service and regular service. Dad had to work at the fire station yesterday so we went to see him yesterday afternoon. Easter always reminds me that we serve a risen savior! He is always near to the broken hearted. God’s plan for our life is far greater than the plans that we want. It is so hard sometimes to wait and have patience. Everyone will always tell you that’s God’s timing is always perfect. Sometimes we want to hurry up his timing and make our own decisions. What a mistake that can make sometimes. Twila Paris sings a song called I Will Listen, I just wanted to share a few lines from that song:

This Is the Faith
Patience to Wait
When There Is Nothing Clear
Nothing to See
Still We Believe
Jesus Is Very Near
I Can Not Imagine What Will Come
But I've Already Made My Choice
And This Is Where I Stand
Until He Moves Me On
And I Will Listen to His Voice

Could It Be That He Is Only Waiting There to See
If I Will Learn to Love the Dreams That He Has Dreamed For Me
Can't Imagine What the Future Holds
But I've Already Made My Choice
And This Is Where I Stand
Until He Moves Me On
And I Will Listen to His Voice

It has been one of my favorite songs for a few months now. It reminds me that we have to listen to God’s voice. When things get hard and difficult we just have to trust that he knows what he is doing. We have all of these dreams for our life that we long to see happen. But God says child my dreams for your life are so much better. He knows our deepest desires and thoughts. When we don’t know what we don’t know what to pray the Spirit intercedes for us. Don’t shout me down now. If we would only trust him and give him all our dreams, what a difference it would make in our life. God is in control of our life anyway. He knows what he is doing. We see the past and the present; however Jesus sees the future that we cannot see.

So whatever you are going through this week, know that God is there. He already knows all the details that will happen this week, nothing catches him off guard. If only we would give him our dreams in exchange for his. We need to learn more to just listen to his voice and know that he knows what he is doing. Sometimes when things happen we want to know the Why?, How? We don’t need to question the why, we just need to trust that our Savior is sovereign and he will never leave us. Luke 18:27 says: Jesus replied, “What is impossible with men is possible with God.” Nothing is impossible with God. He has great plans for our life, listen to his still small voice this week.

Trust...

Well, it’s been over 2 months since my last blog post. A lot of big changes have happened in my life since my last blog. In my last blog, I told the story of 3 frogs sitting on a log, one decided to jump in, how many were left? There were still 3 because that frog only decided to jump in. Sometimes in life, God calls us to take a leap of faith and trust him even when we don’t understand. I felt God telling me that auditing was not what I was supposed to do the rest of my life. There was something else he had planned for me, if I would only trust him. I am going to be honest with you, it was a big step to make. It is always difficult when you can’t see what’s ahead and you don’t really have a plan. It’s our human nature that tells us that you always should have a plan in whatever you do. So, I took the leap of faith and decided to quit my job as an auditor. 2 weeks after I left the CPA firm, God provided me a job in Mobile back home closer to family and church. It was one of the biggest decisions of my life, I can now say with full assurance that it was the best decision I could have ever made. Sometimes trusting the Lord in the unknown can be difficult but he will never fail us. He never promised that we would not have difficulties and hardships. He did promise that he would never leave us nor forsake us. I am so thankful for his love for me.

What does it mean to fully trust the Lord at all time? A definition that the dictionary gives of trust: a dependence on something future or contingent: Hope. I really like that definition because that is exactly what trust is. When we put our trust in the Savior, we accept that fact that we don’t know what the future holds but we Trust Him. So many times in my life I have not fully trusted the Lord in a situation. As humans we think our plans are better than his. When all along the way, he had something greater for us. I can say will full assurance that the job that I have now is only because of God. I had to take the first step. I had to trust that he had a plan for me. He would take care of all the details of when, why, how. I just had to take that first step. I know that when I accepted Christ. I had to take the first step and believe. The rest was history. I remember the night that I got saved. For the first time in my life, I went to bed that night with the peace that passes all understanding.

One of my favorite verses is Proverbs 3:5 it says “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understandings in all your ways acknowledge him and he will make your path straight.” It doesn’t say to trust the Lord with half your heart. No, ALL your heart. In life we should go to our heavenly father with any problem we have. He understands and knows us better than anyone. He loves us so much; he only wants what is best for our life. He wants us to completely put our trust in him. Wither it be in a big decision or relationships. Every day I realize how deep the Fathers love is for me.

There is a song that helps me with trust. It’s called No Matter What by Kerrie Roberts. My favorite part of the song is: “When I’m stuck in this nothing-ness by myself, I’m just sitting in silence, there’s no way I can make it without Your help, I won’t even try it. I know You have Your reasons for everything, so I will keep believing, whatever I might be feeling, God you are my hope, and you'll be my strength.” We can’t make it through life without Christ by our side. There have been times that I have tried to make a decision in life on my own… That was a bad idea. He is our hope and strength in anything we are facing. He only wants what is best for our life. Sometimes when we can’t trace his hand, we have to trust his heart. He seems the master plan. Put your trust in the Lord this week, not in man.

Hello, 2012...

Well, 2011 is gone and now it is 2012. I can’t believe it is here already. Where did all the time go? It feels like yesterday that I was posting a blog about the upcoming year of 2011. 2011 was full of joy, laughter, heartache, tears and trials. Through the difficult times I learned to trust in the Lord and know that he holds me in his arms and he knows what he is doing. There’s a country song by Martina McBride called “A little bit stronger.” When you love someone that you cared about so much, it takes time. It takes time till you finally are ok and are able to keep going on with your life. That’s enough about the sad parts that went on during 2011. The good things in 2011, I have some amazing friends. I don’t know what I would do without them. I know that I say that all the time but it’s the truth. They really are the best support team any girl could ask for. I have gained some new friends this past year that I am looking forward to spending more time with.

I was looking back a few years, to some of my old new year’s resolutions. These are just a few that I found: exercise more, to get a job in my field, a place of my own, to take one day at a time, not worry as much, to live life to the fullest, be a better friend, and learn to cook more. I can say that some of those goals I accomplished and some of them I didn’t. I have learned in life, you have to take one day at a time. You don’t know what the future holds. Most of the time, if you do try to make too many plans for the future, then when those plans are crushed you are left heartbroken.

I have started to read a new book regarding God’s will for your life. So far it has really opened my eyes to many things. Sometimes it is so much easier to say that you are going to do something then actually doing it. It reminds me of a story… There were 3 frogs sitting on a log, one decided to jump in. How many frogs were left on the log? Many would say 2, however, there were still 3 frogs sitting on the log. The reason is because that one frog that decided to jump in, he didn’t actually do it. In life so many times we go to church, listen to the sermon and really think it was a great sermon. However, we must apply it to our life.

This moment in my life there are some things that I say that I am going to do and I haven’t done it yet. I have many dreams for my life. What girl doesn’t right? I have dreams to one day having a job that I love, a husband, and a wonderful family. However, I don’t need to be dreaming about the future all the time. I need to give my dreams to the Lord, put them in his hands and not look back. So many times, I have laid my dreams down at the altar, only to pick them right back up. I know that in order to allow God to work in my life, I have to fully surrender. It’s not an easy thing to do. God calls us to follow him, to trust him and to serve him.

As this New Year starts, I am not going to make any new year’s resolutions. Why? Because most of the time I don’t accomplish any of them. This year, I want to just take one day at a time. Allow God to have full control of my life. I know that once I give it all to him, all those dreams that I thought that I just had to have; those dreams will not be so important to me anymore. We are called to be set apart, to be different and to serve him. I hope that you all have great New Year. Remember just take one day at a time.

Giving the Lord everything no matter what..

It’s hard to believe that it’s going to be December in just a few days. Where does the time go? It seems like yesterday it was spring time. Sometimes I am glad that the time went by so fast but others I wish that time could have slowed down. This month was a month I reflected on the blessings in my life. I have so much to be thankful for. I have a wonderful Christian family that loves me no matter what. I have so many friends in my life that I would not trade for anything in the world. I have gone through some difficult times this past year but my close friends were always there to listen and help me get through it. I am a blessed girl to have a great boyfriend. He is always there when I need him and he puts a smile on my face. I may not get to see him as much as I would like. But the times that we do get to spend together are priceless.

Thanksgiving is always hard for me sometimes without my grandpa. I miss him so much. I know that he would be so proud of me. He loved his family so much and they meant the world to him. Sometimes we don’t understand the plans that the Lord has for our life but we just have to trust him. I know that I have written many blogs about how we have to trust in the Lord even when we don’t understand. The other day I was reading some of my older post that I had wrote this year. I found myself saying that a lot. It is a constant reminder that sometimes we have to trust that his ways are better than our ways.

Earlier this month I finished reading a book called “Crazy Love.” It really spoke to me in a big way. It was about living out our Christian life. I think so many times as humans we just wake up and go through our daily routine and don’t look for an opportunity to make a difference that day. As humans we are creatures of habit. I have to admit to you that even after reading crazy love about making changes in my life, I still have yet to fully give it all and make all the changes. Why is it that is so hard to fully surrender? I think its fear of the unknown. I think we begin ask questions like the following: What if means that God wants me to change this in my life? I can’t give that up, it’s too hard. That’s scary; I don’t think I am capable to do something like that?

God has called us to be different. One of my life verses is this: “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.”- Proverbs 3:5-6. We have to fully trust in him, knowing that he will take care of us no matter what.

One last thing I want to leave you with. It’s a post that I left on a bible study recently on Ruth. Ruth was an amazing woman. I can imagine that she was beautiful but more than anything she loved the Lord with all her heart. My post: “Girlfriends... I don't know about you’ll but this week really spoke to me in many ways. Day 4 spoke about in Proverbs 31 it says that her husband has full confidence in her and lacks nothing of value. I long to be a woman that seeks the Lord. I think so many times as a single person that we are sitting around waiting on God to send us "the one". When really we need to be serving the Lord and striving to have those traits that special person is looking for in a mate. This week I have realized that I need to be praying more and staying in his word. I am doing Ruth and reading Crazy Love at the same time. In the book Crazy Love it talks about how God wants us to give our all and not be lukewarm. I realized this week that I just need to give all my worries my concerns to God and stop trying to make things happen. When I try to make things happen, it never has a good ending. This coming up week I am going to try to be the one that the Lord longs for me to be.”

Thankful for all blessings in my life..

Well, this blog is going to be a two part blog. The first part will be about hard questions, one of the topics from my Ruth bible study and the last part will be about a guy named Matthew Hicks. I always save the best for last you know me.

I am enjoying my bible study on Ruth so far. I have learned so much in just a week of the study. One of the topics was about difficult discussions. Difficult discussions they have to happen but no one likes to have them. I think that they are important in any relationship. Whether it is a husband, girlfriend, boyfriend, best friend, sister.. I’ll be honest when I get in an argument with someone most of the time I shut down and it takes me a while till I say what I am thinking. It probably is a good thing, but at the same time I am keeping all that anger inside which is not good at all. When it comes to deep discussions, I think they are important for a relationship to grow. It makes you appreciate the other person more. Sometimes they may tell you something you don’t want to hear, but you’ll thank them one day. I know in my life I treasured that friend that told me things I hurt to hear. It saved me a lot of heartache in the long run.

I think as humans the reason that we don’t like to be honest with someone is fear. We are afraid of the response they will have once we are honest with them. If they are a true friend, they might be upset for a few days but they will come back before you know it. The friends that I have I would not trade them for anything. They have been by my side when I needed them. They were always honest and told the truth. Have those difficult talks, ask the hard questions. You will be so glad that you did in the long run. It will grow your relationship, it will help you understand the other person better.

Enough talking about serious stuff. As I promised in my last post, I will tell you a little bit about Matthew Hicks. Who is he? Why is he so important? Well, Matthew Hicks is who I am dating now. He makes me smile all the time. He is a true gentleman which is even better. He supports me in things that I do which is very important to me. He is one of my biggest fans. I am also proud of him as well though. He is tall, which is a good thing because it makes me feel safe and protected. I know that no one will try to get me when I am with Matt. He enjoys watching football. He’s not an Alabama fan but I told him that I won’t hold that against him. Did I tell he always is making me laugh? I think laughter is the best medicine and I have got plenty of it these past few weeks. I can’t wait to see what each tomorrow holds. Well, I am still not going to give it all away in this blog either. Some things are better left a mystery… Keeps you on your toes.

Fall is in the air!

Well, it’s time for a new blog. Did I tell you that I love this fall weather! It’s so nice outside now. I am enjoying just sitting outside. I have already roasted marshmallows with the family this past week, and had coffee outside with Matt at Starbucks. I am going to start backing running this week, I can’t wait to get outside and run! I have decided to run in another 5K on October 29th. I am very excited about it! I didn’t think I would enjoy running, but I do. It gives me energy and I feel like I have accomplished something when I am done. My first 5K was 2 weeks ago, I even placed in my age category. I was pretty excited!

This year has gone by so fast. It feels like yesterday it was tax season. Not that I am wishing tax season back. Believe me I am not looking forward to it at all. Long weeks, long nights… Let’s not talk about it right now. I started a new bible study tonight that I am doing online with my church. The study is on Ruth. I think it will be a really good study after doing the first day. I need to get back to finishing my Beth Moore book that I got a few months back. Hopefully, I can finish it this week.

I was able to meet my sister’s boyfriend last week. They are such a cute couple. They are always smiling all the time. That’s the way that it should be. If you could see me right now I have a big smile on my face as well. Matthew Hicks has brought back a smile on Savannah’s face. I will save my next blog to tell you more. Just know at the moment that I’m excited to see what the future has in store for my life in general.

Until next time laugh and smile often. My dad always said laughter is the best medicine. I would have to agree with him. Last week I laughed so much that my side was hurting.

Satisfaction in God

Well, it’s been a while since my last post. I haven’t had much going on. I have just been working, church and watching football on Saturdays. I have been getting ready for the 5K that I am running in October. So that’s a goal that I am setting for myself. I hope that by the end of this week, I will be at 2 miles. I feel if I get that accomplished then I will be at a good place. I enjoy running it’s one of my new hobbies. It gives me a lot more energy and gives me something to do after I get off work every day.

I started a bible study by Beth Moore. The name of it is Living Free. I am on Week 4 this week. It has really opened my eyes to a lot of things. Today especially was a big eye opener. Just last night I prayed that this week I would learn to seek the Lord more and not worry about not having a boyfriend or a husband right now. I prayed that I would learn to be content with where the Lord has placed me right now. I know that there is a reason for everything and God has a big plan for my life. Well, today’s study topic was satisfaction in God.. One phrase that really hit me was: “God never intended any other earthly relationship to fulfill our deepest needs.” My savior is all that I need. There is a satisfaction that only he can give me. I know that I need to come to a place that I realize that Christ is all that I need and nothing else matters.

It’s so easy to say: God you are all I need, help me to give everything to you and know that you have a big plan for me. The hard part is to believe it in my heart. To learn to trust him that He will meet all my needs. My Jesus knows where I am at today, he knows that my heart is hurting but he wants me to cling to him and know that His love is all that I need. I feel like at times God wants me to come to a place that I realize that He is all need and learn to be happy being single. I think that until I come to that place he just might hold off on giving me another relationship. That’s what’s hard, it’s not easy. Every day, I have to say the same prayer over and over again: Lord help me to rest in you and know that you have got a big plan, you know what is best for my life.

Just taking one day at a time..

Most of the time I know what I want to blog about. But this week I know that I want to blog but I don’t really have a topic to talk about. So, I am just going to start typing and let my heart talk. These past few months have had their ups and downs. There have been tears and smiles, good times and bad times. I have come to the realization that things don’t always go as planned but there is a great plan that sometimes we cannot see.

I have learned in life that all you can do is live for today. You cannot bring back yesterday and you can’t see tomorrow. If we dwell on the past it’s not going to bring the past back to us as much as we want it to. The mistakes that we make in our life we just have to learn from them and move forward with life. A few weeks ago Pastor Ed made a statement that I will never forget. He said “When we worship a good thing as a God thing that’s a bad thing.” I can’t tell you how powerful that spoke to me. So many times in my life I have done this. I have gone through so many heartbreaks in my life. It has always been a joke at my house with my dating relationships. I would go on a date with a guy, two weeks later, I was telling dad that he’s the one day I just know it.

I have a big heart. I have always been the kind that when I am going to be your friend, most of the time you are my friend for life and I am going to do anything I can for you. When I love someone I truly give my whole heart. Is that I bad thing? Sometimes it can be, it can be dangerous when I do lose that person. I feel as if a big part of my life is missing. Every relationship that I have been in, I have learned something out of it. I always said that if I could take all the good traits of each guy I have ever dated. I would have one amazing man. But you know what ,there is one man who wants my whole heart and he is jealous for me.

That one man is Jesus. He loves me so much. His love for me is unfailing, unconditionally, faithful.. The list can go on. He never gives up on me and is always there. There have been times that I left him and he was always there with his loving arms to welcome me back home. He always promises that he will take care of me in the good times and bad. Sometimes I can’t see the big plan but my savior sees the master plan. He has a purpose for everything. It’s a day by day process. When I am having a down day or a day that I think God are you listening to me? He always reminds me that he is walking right beside me and I just need to trust that he knows what he is doing.

Trust, have faith, God's got this..

Well, it’s the start of a new week, full of ups and downs, full of happiness and maybe sadness. The truth is we don’t know what tomorrow holds for us. We just have to have faith that the Lord is never going to leave us and he knows what tomorrow holds. I have learned lately that nothing is for sure, things change, situations change. The one promise that I hold on to is that my Savior never changes, he’s mercies are new every morning, he is always with me, he loves me unconditionally, he wants me to count on him. He wants me to cast all my cares and worries at his feet. So many times in life we want to give him our worries, but then we just want to keep just a little piece of it. Why? I think I do it because I still want to feel like I am in control of the situation or maybe its fear of the unknown. It’s probably more of the fear of the unknown. If you read my last blog you will remember that I said I don’t like that big word CHANGE very much.

The other day I picked up the following book at the bookstore: So Long Insecurity by Beth Moore. I can’t put this book down. It’s a book that at this season in my life I really needed to read it. I am going to put some of quotes from her book that has really spoken to me:

“What does your own relational track record look like? Do you tend put a fair amount of pressure on some key relationships” –Beth Moore

“We can get away with thinking we’re secure people because, for a time, we have the important things just like we want them. But then change happens; and suddenly we are thrown for a severe emotional loop. We realize we weren’t secure.” – Beth Moore

“God knows exactly what happened and what a toll it took. He knows the number that it played on your mind. Let Him bring you peace. Let Him tell you you’re worth wanting, loving, even liking, pursuing, fighting for, and yes, beloved, keeping.” –Beth Moore

“Even when we know God is in the picture and every end leads to a new beginning, right at the moment of discovery, we tend to feel that everything wonderful is over.”- Beth Moore.

Those are just a few things that really spoke to me. In this life we have things that will catch us off guard. When life seemed like it was going just the way that it was supposed to, here comes something that you weren’t expecting. I know from experience in life that when the unexpected happens it’s not fun, it’s not easy, and it will take a while before you will be ok with everything. You just have to learn to trust even when you don’t understand. I think that saying “Trust even when you don’t understand” is what has got me through many things in life. Life is not always easy, it’s going to be rocky at times, but that’s when the only thing we can do is to completely give it to God. He knows what the future holds, his plans and ways are greater than ours. Believe me at times I struggle with that. Because when I have something that I know that God gave me and then he is going to take what he gave me away from me, I don’t handle that very well. I have to ask my Savior every day help me dear Lord to give it all to you, it’s in your hands now, and I can’t do anything to change it.

Satan will want to discourage and make us feel like nothing. He will tell us lies to bring us down. When that happens we just have to tell Satan to leave and ask God to continue to give you strength. When I write sometimes it’s therapy for me. I feel like if I write things down I can get things off my chest. God knows where I am and he meets me there. He holds me when I cry. I didn’t mean for this to be a long blog, I just started writing. Trust, have faith, know that there is a reason for everything.

Change.. No one likes that word..

Change no one likes that word. It’s because you don’t know what change will bring. It means that you are no longer in control or know what to expect in the future. The dictionary defines change: to make the form, nature, content, future course, etc., of (something) different from what it is or from what it would be if left alone. I know that even as a child I didn’t like change. It’s the unknown that scares me. As a child I had all my plans in my mind of how my life would be. My plans never where as I planned because of the word change...

As a human, I don’t like change but over and over in my life I have found out that change happens every day. The way that we react when change happens is what matters. Our human nature we want to just give up and not move forward. We want to bring back the past because the past was comfortable. We knew how to move forward, life was just the way that we wanted it. But if we have that attitude then where does change have in our life. As a Christian we have to give up all of our plans and let God direct our life. Most of the time the word change will take place when we want to follow Christ. Sometimes change is what it may take for us to realize that he wants us to give it all to him. He knew before we were born how our life would be. He knew that sometimes it may take change in our life for us to fully understand what faith is.

Sometimes it may take a storm in our life to know we need a shelter. When we can’t trace his hand we must trust his heart. He has a bigger plan than the ones that we have for our life. I struggle sometimes when change comes into my life, I want to get upset with God because I had it all planned out only for him to take it away from me. Maybe sometimes he has to take us to the lowest place for us to realize what he is trying to tell us that he is all that we need in this life. He knows what is best for us. I mean he did create us. He knows us better than anyone else. My savior knows that I love music and poetry that it is my heart. So sometimes he has to get my attention in those ways. He reminds me that he hasn't forgotten about me. That he is holding my hand through it all.

I have to tell you about my friend, the piano. I have not played it in probably about a year. I don’t have one at my house in Loxley. Well, this past Saturday, something hit me to play it. I sat at the piano just like it was yesterday; I played and played probably the rest of the afternoon. It was like therapy to me. I felt so bad for leaving it. I felt like when I sat at the piano it was just the music and me. It’s amazing how you forget the things that you love so much. As a human I get so caught up in wanting to be what others want me to be. When, really that gets me nowhere. People will always let me down. God will never leave me no matter what. He knows my heart, my desires. He will hold my hand through the darkest times in my life. He knows when I’m hurting and he reminds me that it will only make me stronger and that he knows that it will take time but he’s going to hold me all the way. He will never give up on me.

God's got it all under control

Well, readers, it’s been a while since my last blog. Sometimes life just goes by too fast. Sometimes I step back and wonder where did all the time go? Next week I will be teaching 3rd and 4th graders at VBS. I am excited and I can’t wait to see what the Lord has in store. I know that he will do great things in the hearts of the kids next week. Kids now days are so smart and eager to learn more. The theme is The Big Apple (New York City). When I use to help do VBS at my dad’s church I did the music but I can’t wait to teach next week.

Today, God reminded me of how he is always with us. There are sometimes that I say “Lord have you been hearing me?” He reminded me that he hasn’t forgotten about me. He is right there with me through it all. It was kind of like he was saying “Savannah, my child, I’m listening to you, I haven’t forgot about you. I am listening to your every word. Just be still and know that I got this all under control.”

This past weekend was Father’s Day. I went home this past weekend to spend some time with my dad. He is such an amazing dad. He is always there when I need him. He prays for me, his love for me is unconditional. He has been there through the good times and the bad. There have been times in my life that I have had a broken heart, my dad reminds me that my prince charming is out there. He tells me that God has someone amazing out there for me, just to wait and see. He always said Savannah sometimes you have to kiss a lot of frogs before you find your prince. Through the years I have seen how amazing my dad is. I love you dad!

I found this poem today in my Where the Sidewalk Ends book I thought I’d share:
Smart

My dad gave me one dollar bill
Cause I’m his smartest son,
And I swapped it for two shiny quarters
Cause two is more than one!

And then I took the quarters
And traded them to Lou
For three dimes- I guess he don’t know
That three is more than two!

Just then, along came old blind Bates
And just ‘cause he can’t see
He gave me four nickels for my three dimes
And four is more than three!

And I took the nickels to Hiram Coombs
Down at the seed-feed store,
And the fool gave me five pennies for them,
And five is more than four!

And then I went and showed my dad,
And he got red in the cheeks
And closed his eyes and shook his head-
Too proud of me to speak!

Time is going by so fast...

Well, readers I can't believe that it is going to be June already. Where has the time gone. Time goes by when you are staying busy all the time. Since the beginning of the year, I have been in two weddings. There should not be any more weddings this year so I am glad. There is a lot that is involved in putting a wedding together and making it look nice. I have learned a lot though so that when the day comes that I marry I will know what to do and what not to do.

Work is fixing to get busy for me in the next couple of weeks. Then in June I have two family reunions to go to that are two weekends back to back. I can't wait for my family members to meet my boyfriend Logan. I think they will see why I love this man. Logan and me are doing great. Our love grows stronger for each other every day. I know that God has brough us together for a reason. God is faithful and always knows what is best for our life. I have been going to church with him now in baldwin county. We are teaching a class in VBS in June. I can't wait! I know that we are going to have lots of fun.

One of my favorite verses is " Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding." Proverbs 3:5. Whatever you are going through the Lord knows and he is always going to be with you.

Tax season is finally over...

Well, at last I finally am getting my life back to normal. Today was the first saturday that I have been able to sleep in since January. It has been a long few months. Working till 6 every night and working 5 hours on saturday as well. I treated myself to a pedicure yesterday.. On my day off on monday, I have scheduled a one hour massage. I have been waiting for this time for some time now. I won't know what to do tuesday though when we get off at 5. I will have more time to clean my house more, spend more time with Logan and do things that I have missed doing these last months.

I am so thankful for Logan who has stayed with me through all of this. He is trully a blessing. He always makes me smile still and makes me laugh. He is such a hard worker. I trully am lucky to have such a great boyfriend.

My best friend Erin Dunn will be home soon. I am so excited!!! I can't wait to just catch up with her. Sit around and just talk and have some girl time. She has been gone way too long. I can't wait for her to meet Logan, even though she knew him before I did.

I am trully blessed. Last year this time, I probably wasn't as happy and greatful as I am today. Always remember to be thankful for everything that God has given you. He blessings are new every morning. Well, I'm going to stop blogging now because this weekend is all about rest and relaxation for Savannah.. I will talk to you soon!

2011 is here!!

Happy New Year everyone!!! Goodbye 2010! 2010 went by so fast. I don't know where it went! It seems like yesterday it was still spring time! 2010 was full of good times, difficult days, happiness and laughter! I am so blessed that through all the hard times my friends and family are always there for me! There were days that I don't know what I would do without some of my friends. If I started to name all my best girlfriends, I would be afraid I would leave someone out.

2010 is when I started my career and moved out on my own. I am so blessed to work for a great boss and co-workers that are the best to work with! I am finally getting adjusted to living by myself. It took a while to get adjusted but I enjoy it now! I have learned how to cook and take care of a fish! However the flower garden I was not so successful with.

In 2011, I am looking forward to all the blessings and the adventures that are in store for me. I don't know what it holds but that's the fun part is the mystery. I am going to try to take one day at a time and not worry as much. Worrying does me no good. I was looking at what some of my new year's resolutions were last year. I had on there that I wouldn't worry so much. I don't think I was very successful at keeping that one.

This year, I want to live life to the fullest and be a better friend! I hope that by the end of the year I have learned to cook more so that when the day comes that the Lord blessed me with a husband, I can be a great wife. I never would have dreamed being 23 and still single but the Lord always knows what it is best in my life! He is just waiting to the perfect time and just have to faithful and trust him! I hope that everyone has a blessed 2011! I am always thinking of you all! Thanks for being apart of my life and give me advice!

Merry Christmas!!!

Merry Christmas everyone!! I hope that you all have a great Christmas spending time with friends and family! It's so hard to beleive that it is already Christmas! It feels like yesterday when it was summer time! Time goes by so fast the older that I get! I am looking forward to spending time with my family during Christmas!!

So, my christmas present to myself this year was a new car!! I really enjoy it so much! It drives like a dream! I got a 2010 Cheverloet Impala! I always said once a chevy girl you will always be one. I looked at other cars but I just feel in love with this car! It's the first big purchase that I have made on my own! I am becoming a big girl. So now in the new year I will have car payments every month.

This year around christmas is hard on me sometimes. It reminds me of those that I love that have passed. My great grandmother, I miss her so much! All of the Reeves would get together at her house every christmas eve! Those are memories that I will ever hold dear in my heart. My grandpa, Mack Reed, how I miss him too! He always loved christmas so he could be with his family! I remember getting my barbie convertable hot wheel car when I was little. I loved that car! I loved my grandpa so much! I know if he was here today, he would be excited that I got a new car. The first thing he would do is look underneath the hood to make sure it was a good car. He would asks if I got a good deal. I miss his smile. I will have to eats lots of sweets this year! Grandpa had a sweet tooth expecially around christmas!

I hope everyone has a great Christmas! Don't forget the real meaning of Christmas! It's not about all the presents and lights. It's about celebrating Jesus's birth! Merry Christmas!

It's beginning to look a lot like christmas..

Well readers.... It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas every where you go.. I am in the Christmas spirit now.. I put up my Christmas tree on Saturday.. I am really enjoying my first Christmas in my new place..

I saw the lights at bellingraph on Sunday night! They were so pretty. The weather was nice and cold too. It felt like Christmas. They were playing all the Christmas music too!

I need to get some Christmas shopping done. I haven't not got any of my presents yet. Well, I did get one thing for my sister but that's all. I always enjoy Christmas getting to spend time with my friends and family. It always makes me happy. They are what keeps me going some days.

Well, I am keeping it short this week on my blog. My brain is still in information overload at the moment. Today and tomorrow I have CPE classes that are all about taxes.. Fun stuff. Well, I hope everyone has a great week!

Being content and thankful..

Well, I know it has been a long time since I wrote the last blog. My computer crashed and died. So, I got a new computer during black Friday! Yeah I know I was one of those people stand in a long line early in the morning but it was worth it.
I have been doing well, I guess. Nothing much has happened since my last blog. I have just been working and doing little things in between work. I can’t believe that it will be Christmas soon. I don’t have any of my Christmas presents yet. My computer was my Christmas present to myself. This year has gone by. This time last year I had a lot on my mind. I can say that things are better this time than last year but I still am not where I wanted to be.
This past week was thanksgiving. There is so much that I am thankful for. Sometimes in our life we get so overwhelmed with the thing that we don’t have in our life that we forget to thank the Lord for our blessings. God has truly blessed me with the best friends in the whole world. They have been there for me through the good and the bad. There have been days that I would call them and say I just need to vent and I just need you to listen and they do. There are times when I need them to meet me on a Friday night because I don’t like staying at home on a Friday night by myself. I couldn’t have been blessed with any better friends in my life. My best friend Erin is across the world right now and through all that she has going on she finds time when I call her to just listen.
This morning in Sunday school, Mr. Napp showed a video that really spoke to me. It was on silence. How there are so many times that we don’t make time to just be still in the silence and listen to God. I’ll be honest with you. I don’t like silence at all. I feel alone in the silence. I feel as if no one is there for me and I feel incomplete. This year living myself I have had my good days and bad days. I have had days that when it gets too silent in the house that I will just turn on some music.
This week as hard as it will be for me, I am going to sit and be still. I know that if I do sit and be silent that the Lord will speak to me and show me that there is nothing to be afraid of. He is never going to leave me alone; he is there with me even in the silence. Until next week I challenge you this week to take time out this week to just be silent and allow the Lord to speak to you.