Well, it’s been a while since my last post. I haven’t had much going on. I have just been working, church and watching football on Saturdays. I have been getting ready for the 5K that I am running in October. So that’s a goal that I am setting for myself. I hope that by the end of this week, I will be at 2 miles. I feel if I get that accomplished then I will be at a good place. I enjoy running it’s one of my new hobbies. It gives me a lot more energy and gives me something to do after I get off work every day.
I started a bible study by Beth Moore. The name of it is Living Free. I am on Week 4 this week. It has really opened my eyes to a lot of things. Today especially was a big eye opener. Just last night I prayed that this week I would learn to seek the Lord more and not worry about not having a boyfriend or a husband right now. I prayed that I would learn to be content with where the Lord has placed me right now. I know that there is a reason for everything and God has a big plan for my life. Well, today’s study topic was satisfaction in God.. One phrase that really hit me was: “God never intended any other earthly relationship to fulfill our deepest needs.” My savior is all that I need. There is a satisfaction that only he can give me. I know that I need to come to a place that I realize that Christ is all that I need and nothing else matters.
It’s so easy to say: God you are all I need, help me to give everything to you and know that you have a big plan for me. The hard part is to believe it in my heart. To learn to trust him that He will meet all my needs. My Jesus knows where I am at today, he knows that my heart is hurting but he wants me to cling to him and know that His love is all that I need. I feel like at times God wants me to come to a place that I realize that He is all need and learn to be happy being single. I think that until I come to that place he just might hold off on giving me another relationship. That’s what’s hard, it’s not easy. Every day, I have to say the same prayer over and over again: Lord help me to rest in you and know that you have got a big plan, you know what is best for my life.