Well, it has been almost a month since my last blog. My aunt told me it was about time that I post a new blog. So, I think she is right. Not much has been going on in my life that is exciting. I go to work and come home and find time in between to spend time with friends and family. There are days that if I didn't have my friends and family I don't know what I would do. They are what keeps me togeter sometimes. When I may be having a bad day that I am down, I call my dad and he usually makes me feel better.
There are season in our life that are difficult to understand why. August 6th I will turn 23 this year. I had always wished that I would be married or engaged at this time of my life. All my friends I grew up with are in a relationship, married, having kids. It's hard at times. I keep my head up though because I know that the Lord has a plan for me. He always has. He knew before I was born, the day I would get married, the day I would meet that special person. Everyone always tells me it will happen when you least expect it. Quit looking Savannah and the Lord timing is always on time. It is easy to hear but to make myself trully beleive it is hard sometimes.
These past few weeks I have really been listening to Power 88 more. I have been trying to feel my head with pure and happy thoughts. I would always listen to country. When I look back I was only depressing myself even more. I was listening to stories about love. That was my problem I wanted those things and I knew that it wasn't my time. I have tried these past few weeks to put a grip around the fact that right now I just need to be in love with my Jesus. I need to spend some quality time with him and understand that he is the only one that I need in this life. He is the only one that can complete me and meet all my needs.
A husband would be nice one day but right now I just need to focus on my savior. I need to find out who Savannah really is. I remember so many times that I was in a relationship that if the guy liked football then I started liking football, if he enjoyed golf then I liked golf. If yellow was his favorite color, then I would wear yellow shirts. Silly things like that because I wanted to be apart of that person's life and like what they liked. When in reality, I needed to just be Savannah and do what Savannah likes to do. I think what has really hurt me after a breakup with someone is that I was so devoted and loyal to them that it always hurt when I broke up with a guy because it felt as if a big part of my heart was gone.
One of my favorite verses in the bible is: "Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kids, becuase you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. perserverance must be finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not laciking anything." James 1:2-4
I hope that everyone has a great week this week, always remember that you are never alone in whatever you are going through. The savior is always with you in every part of your life through the good days and the difficult days.
I'm happy to hear you say that you want just be you and to do what Savannah likes to do! AMEN! That's what I want for you too sweetheart! When you are just you and can love who you are, then the rest will fall into place!
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Girl you know, I know where you are coming from and let me tell you I know it's not easy. But in the end it is the best. Read Eph 3:20. I can tell you that after all the prayers that went up for many years, and the bargining,and etc. God gave me far more and better than I could have asked for and chosen for myself. You have to come to a place where you really let it go and give it God and say, "Ok, Lord if you never give me the desires of my heart, if you never give me the man of my dreams, if that's not what you have for me I'm ok with that. 'Cause I only want for me what You want for me becuase that's the best place to be."
ReplyDeleteYou know you can call me with anything. I love ya girl!!
Aunt Ev
Savannah,
ReplyDeleteYou are and have always been such a precious, Godly young woman. My eyes filled with tears as I read your blog. I remember at the talent show when you sang the song, "Better is One Day". It has always been obvious that the Lord has special plans for you precious Savannah. You seek Him and let Him direct you!!! You be Savannah and that is pretty wonderful!!! Remember that you are loved!!!! Lisa Haynes
Hey sweet cousin. I wanted to drop by and say hello and see what you've been up to -- and then I read this post and felt such a mixture of emotions. I don't think there's any advice that I could give you that you haven't already figured out for yourself. You are such a grounded, smart, spiritual person, and despite what you might think... 23 is YOUNG, girl. You don't have to be on the path to marriage yet. I'm nearly 26, and feel that it's only been in the past year that I've really gotten to know who I am and be happy with that person. Only now do I feel ready for someone else, because I know exactly what that person has to be and I won't settle for anything less than that. Be strong, be you and let God do wonderful things in your life. It will all work out the way He intends for it to. Call me if you ever need anything sweetheart. I love you!!
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