Sometimes life can be difficult and you feel like you will never see the light at the end of the tunnel.. You have days that you wonder why you have been put to go through things in this life. I have days like that. I wonder why the Lord allows me to go through difficult times. What is he try to teach me? Sometimes it may be for us to realize that he is the only one that we need. He is the only one that will always be there no matter what. If it is 3:00 in the morning, you can't sleep and need someone to listen to you and hold you while you cry. Jesus will be there. He promised he will never leave us nor forsake us. I love my Jesus so much. I may think at times that life is not fair, when will it be my turn. You know what though, if we sit around dwelling on when it will be our turn we will never get anywhere. I have realized the more I dwell on it, the more I become bitter, I get upset and don't want to do anything.
I think that these past months the Lord is trying to teach me something. I am not really sure what he is trying to teach me but I know that I can trust him. He always has our best interest at heart. The other night I watched the movie, "Letters to God." I cried and cried. It was a movie I will never forget. I have decided that I am going to write letters to God. I am not going to put them in the mail or anything. I will probably put them in an envelope though. Sometimes I feel that writing helps me so much. I will be honest there are days that I won't pray to God simply because I am not sure what to say when I have been through more than a girl my age should have to go through. Nothing bad, just emotionally things that are difficult.
So... I am going to start writing my letters to God tonight. One of my favorite songs on Power 88 right now is: No matter what. You should look it up and listen to the lyrics. My favorite part of the song is the beginning:
"I’m running back to your promises one more time, Lord that’s all I can hold on to, I gotta say this has taken me by surprise, but nothing surprises you. Before a heartache can ever touch my life, it has to go through Your hands, and even though I keep asking why, I keep asking why,
No matter what, I’m gonna love You, no matter what I’m gonna need You, I know You can find a way to keep me from the pain but if not, I’ll trust you, no matter what, no matter what."
Lord, I give it all to you. Help me to trust you and know that you always will provide. You love me so much! Help me Lord to realize that you are the only one that I need. That when the day is done and I lay my head down at night you are right there with me. Remind me of your promises.
I hope everyone has a great week. Just remember that everything happens for a reason and that Jesus is always there to listen and hold you when you cry.