Letters to God..

Sometimes life can be difficult and you feel like you will never see the light at the end of the tunnel.. You have days that you wonder why you have been put to go through things in this life. I have days like that. I wonder why the Lord allows me to go through difficult times. What is he try to teach me? Sometimes it may be for us to realize that he is the only one that we need. He is the only one that will always be there no matter what. If it is 3:00 in the morning, you can't sleep and need someone to listen to you and hold you while you cry. Jesus will be there. He promised he will never leave us nor forsake us. I love my Jesus so much. I may think at times that life is not fair, when will it be my turn. You know what though, if we sit around dwelling on when it will be our turn we will never get anywhere. I have realized the more I dwell on it, the more I become bitter, I get upset and don't want to do anything.

I think that these past months the Lord is trying to teach me something. I am not really sure what he is trying to teach me but I know that I can trust him. He always has our best interest at heart. The other night I watched the movie, "Letters to God." I cried and cried. It was a movie I will never forget. I have decided that I am going to write letters to God. I am not going to put them in the mail or anything. I will probably put them in an envelope though. Sometimes I feel that writing helps me so much. I will be honest there are days that I won't pray to God simply because I am not sure what to say when I have been through more than a girl my age should have to go through. Nothing bad, just emotionally things that are difficult.

So... I am going to start writing my letters to God tonight. One of my favorite songs on Power 88 right now is: No matter what. You should look it up and listen to the lyrics. My favorite part of the song is the beginning:
"I’m running back to your promises one more time, Lord that’s all I can hold on to, I gotta say this has taken me by surprise, but nothing surprises you. Before a heartache can ever touch my life, it has to go through Your hands, and even though I keep asking why, I keep asking why,

No matter what, I’m gonna love You, no matter what I’m gonna need You, I know You can find a way to keep me from the pain but if not, I’ll trust you, no matter what, no matter what."

Lord, I give it all to you. Help me to trust you and know that you always will provide. You love me so much! Help me Lord to realize that you are the only one that I need. That when the day is done and I lay my head down at night you are right there with me. Remind me of your promises.

I hope everyone has a great week. Just remember that everything happens for a reason and that Jesus is always there to listen and hold you when you cry.

Such as time as this...

Well, it has been almost a month since my last blog. My aunt told me it was about time that I post a new blog. So, I think she is right. Not much has been going on in my life that is exciting. I go to work and come home and find time in between to spend time with friends and family. There are days that if I didn't have my friends and family I don't know what I would do. They are what keeps me togeter sometimes. When I may be having a bad day that I am down, I call my dad and he usually makes me feel better.

There are season in our life that are difficult to understand why. August 6th I will turn 23 this year. I had always wished that I would be married or engaged at this time of my life. All my friends I grew up with are in a relationship, married, having kids. It's hard at times. I keep my head up though because I know that the Lord has a plan for me. He always has. He knew before I was born, the day I would get married, the day I would meet that special person. Everyone always tells me it will happen when you least expect it. Quit looking Savannah and the Lord timing is always on time. It is easy to hear but to make myself trully beleive it is hard sometimes.

These past few weeks I have really been listening to Power 88 more. I have been trying to feel my head with pure and happy thoughts. I would always listen to country. When I look back I was only depressing myself even more. I was listening to stories about love. That was my problem I wanted those things and I knew that it wasn't my time. I have tried these past few weeks to put a grip around the fact that right now I just need to be in love with my Jesus. I need to spend some quality time with him and understand that he is the only one that I need in this life. He is the only one that can complete me and meet all my needs.

A husband would be nice one day but right now I just need to focus on my savior. I need to find out who Savannah really is. I remember so many times that I was in a relationship that if the guy liked football then I started liking football, if he enjoyed golf then I liked golf. If yellow was his favorite color, then I would wear yellow shirts. Silly things like that because I wanted to be apart of that person's life and like what they liked. When in reality, I needed to just be Savannah and do what Savannah likes to do. I think what has really hurt me after a breakup with someone is that I was so devoted and loyal to them that it always hurt when I broke up with a guy because it felt as if a big part of my heart was gone.

One of my favorite verses in the bible is: "Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kids, becuase you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. perserverance must be finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not laciking anything." James 1:2-4

I hope that everyone has a great week this week, always remember that you are never alone in whatever you are going through. The savior is always with you in every part of your life through the good days and the difficult days.

Time goes by fast when you're having fun..

Can you believe that tomorrow will be June 1... Where has this year gone? I feel like just yesterday it was April still. A lot of good things and hard times have happen this year, but through it all I have learned something that I can apply to my life.

I am still enjoying my job. I never have the same day twice. I enjoy having a challenge sometimes. Living in baldwin county is so much fun. I can go just about amywhere. I feel like I never stay home though. I usually get home from work in the evenings and either go to books-a-million or stay home and watch a movie. I like staying busy though, it makes time go by faster.

Sometimes I sure to miss being in college because I had summer break. Now that I am a working woman, I don't get those anymore. I have the weekends though. I will be spending some at the beach this year you can count on that. That is if the oil doesn't come our way. Well, I better finish enjoying the rest of my day off.

Oh how he loves us..

So I feel like this month has gone by so fast.. I am still enjoying Baldwin county. I enjoy living on my own. I used to not like the quiet but now it's peaceful. I have plenty of me time. I have learned that it's when I get lonely I need to pray and spend time in God's word.

Today at church, the Lord really spoke to me. The speaker said, "We don't just need God in our life but he needs to be our life." I needed to hear that. So many times in my life I just go through the motions of church. This week I am going to try to pray more and look for opportunities to share.

I have a new song that I will be singing all week.. " He is jealous for me,Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree,And oh, how He loves us so,Oh how He loves us..." Jesus longs for us to love him. In my life so many times, I want to be in control of certain situations and not give it to him. He wants us to give him all our worries to him and just have faith that he will give us strength to get through the hard times.

So whatever you are going through just know that he is there for us and he just wants us to trust him and give it all to him.

Verse for the week: "Ask and it will be given to you, seek and you will find; knock and the door will be open to you. For everyone that seeks finds; and to him who knocks , the door will be opened." Matt. 7: 7-8.

Just take a deep breath...

Hey readers.. Well, I am still alive I have just been missing in action lately. I have been busy at work. At least tax season is over so I have my life back again. I have longer weekends again. I went to the beach this past Sunday! It was really nice to just get away for a little bit. The beach is where I go to just let go of the worries and stress in my life. This year has been a good year so far. I have started my career and living on my own now. I like it, it gets lonely sometimes but overall I enjoy it. Friday will have been a year since my Grandpa has been gone. I miss him a lot some days. I know he would be so proud of me for all my accomplishments though. He loved his family so much. I hope that one day I can have a man as strong as he was. I want a love like my grandma and grandpa had. Love like that is so hard to find now days.

Call me old fashion but I want a man that is going to seek after me. A man that puts value in me and adores everything about me. I want a man that is strong and that loves Jesus as much as I do. Someone that can listen to all my problems and tell me I am beautiful. I could go on.. but I think you get the idea. I know that that type of man is out there. I know my prince charming is out there. I don't know where he is right now but I know that it is all in God's timing. I just have to have faith that maybe he is not ready to show me him yet. But when the time is right I will know who he is. My dad always told me that sometimes you have to kiss a lot of frogs before you find your prince. I believe that to be true. I have had my share of boyfriends, heartaches and breakups in my life. But each one has made me a stronger person.

The hardest part for me right now is the waiting. I love being in love. I love sharing my life with someone special. Doing things to show someone that I value them. I just have to know that right now is just not my time for love. Jesus is making me a stronger woman. I am learning that in this life time he is the only one who will never leave me no matter what..

Well, enough of my rambling on.. I hope that you all have a great week! Remember that there is always a reason and purpose for everything in life, even when we may never see it.. Love ya'll!

He has always been faithful!

Sorry it has been so long since my last post.. Well, a lot has been going on with me. I started my new job which I am really enjoying. I am still learning everything and will be for a while. I enjoy everyone that I work with though. I am moving this weekend to Loxely. I will be only 15 mins from work which I am so excited about! This hour and a half can get old very fast. I am not looking forward to the packing and moving part. It always takes a while to get everything the way that you want it and finding everything. It will be nice being around everything though. I won't be far from shopping and the beach!

This year is going by so fast already. I guess that's good. I truly believe that the older I get the faster life goes by. I get so busy sometimes that I don't stop and realize all the small things in life that matter. One day things will slow down.. I hope so at least. 2 more Saturdays of tax season!!

Verse for the week: "So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised." Hebrews 10: 35-36. So many times during the week I get so busy that I forget why I am here on this earth and that is to Glorify my Savior. He is so faithful even when we aren't. If it wasn't for his grace. Thank you Jesus for loving a sinner like me. He has never left me yet. All the hard times in my life he is always there to remind me of his love for me and he always is there to listen.

Trust Christ in all things! He knows what is best for us even when we don't see the outcome..

How Great is Our God!!

I know that the Lord answers prayers. He's time is always on time even though at times we may not think so. A few weeks ago, I accepted an accounting job. I will be working for a CPA firm!! I am so excited!! Back in November I interviewed with the firm twice, but did not receive the job. However, a position came open and they offered me the job. I will probably move to Baldwin county eventually!

I feel as if I am starting a new beginning! I have always liked change. It's when you have to trust the Lord! After searching an entire year for a job, there were times when I wondered if the Lord was listening to my cry. I know that he was. He was just waiting till just the right time. He knew that if he made it easy for me then I would not trust in him that he would give me all that I would ever need!